Goodbyes

Well...these last three days have been extremely hard. I pretty much haven't stopped crying since Thursday. I never thought leaving me would hit me this hard but it did and I don't know how to handle it. I'm sad I left the islands, I'm sad I am leaving the country and I am sad about the friends I am leaving behind. People keep saying "oh you can always go back to the Galapagos!", which I know I can but the Galapagos will never be the same unless I have all other 33 people I've spent the last four months with right beside me. 

I feel very overhemeled and frustrated with going back to the states. I miss home so much and can't wait to see the people I left there but I also don't want to leave what I've created for myself in the Galapagos behind. The past couple of weeks I know I kept saying I wanted to go home and that I was ready to go home.. but I don't think I was/am at all. For me I felt like yeah I would be going back to the states but that all my friends would be coming with me. I kept saying I was ready to leave the islands but I was never ready to leave the friendships I made. 

I cried in the San Cristobal airport, I cried on the plane during take off, I cried in Quito until midnight and cried again when I woke up for my journey back home. I don't even know what to say anymore, I feel numb. I don't know what to do next I feel just helpless. I want to go back to the Galapagos so badly right now, I fell in love with that place and everything it had to offer. Such a beautiful archipelago and an incredible opportunity. I think I am going to try to convince my family to go back next year since I graduate college for a graduation gift. I want to go back to the Galapagos as much as I possibly can, that place became my second home. 

I don't know what else to talk about or how long this post because my computer is sadly not doing too hot and I'm typing on my phone. I just know I will treasure the memories and the lifelong friendships I made over the four months. I will never forget any of it